my world crumbled..
the very moment I discovered who I was..
my world crumbled..
the very moment I become truthful to myself..
my world crumbled..
because I could no longer see my future..
n it all happened too suddenly..
I feel so miserable..
As thou darkness has engulfed my very being..
Taken away my capacity to feel..to see..to think..
Just as I tot I knew who I m..
The very next moment..
I din know who I was anymore..
All I wanted was to sink more..
To sink deeper into darkness..
N forever be lost in darkness..
Was it possible to feel this way..?
Now I noe..
It is possible..
Y did I come into existence..?
My presence does not bring additional joy to anyone’s life..
I do not value add anyone’s life..
Nor does anyone because of me..
Feel like living is a joy..
i..
m just a nobody..
that nobody wants me to b ard..
nothing will change no matter what I think..
nothing will change no matter what I feel..
nothing will change no matter what I do..
that is how little I m..
how insignificant my presence is..
no amount of regrets will turn back the time I hv lost..
no amount of regrets can help me get the future I wan..
everythin..
can only b kept within me..
n now..
my biggest regret..
is no longer that I made the wrong decisions in life..
my biggest regret..
is not that I have lost everythin I once held dear..
my biggest regret is not that I was rejected in everythin I do..
but my biggest regret..
is that I was born to this world at this time..
my biggest regret is that I m alive..
n feelin every emotion..
my biggest regret..

my world crumbled..
all I see..
is darkness..
darkness so dark..
tht not even a sliver of shadow can b seen..
darkness so heavy..
that not even the brightest sunlight can penetrate it..
darkness so depressing..
that not even the loveliest maiden can sing her way out of the darkness..

amongst all these..
I really feel..
Like I have fallen into the dark..
I do not want to feel..
I do not want to know..
I do not want to see..
I do not..
I do not..
I just..
I just wan…

Yet I noe..it is not possible..n it is not because of me..or other factors..
So..

because of that sentence..
I will hide myself..
because of the words..
I will hide myself..
because my hurt will give others joy..
I will hide myself..
Because of the way I feel..
I will hide myself..

I will do all these..
Even if it kills me..
I have to do all these..
Put on a mask..
N pretend that nothing happened..
I will b dead..
To every emotion that is in this world..
It is precisely because I care too much..
Tt I have to make myself care about nothing now..

Care about nothing..

can someone drive a knife into me n end my misery once n for all?
i really cant take anymore..
i m not a woman..not even a girl..
i..
i cant handle all these..
just..
end my misery already.
end it.
end......
pplllllllllllssssssss endddddddd it...............

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